Friday, August 12, 2011

Ladies, am I a datable person?

I'm 19 in first year's college, and I have never in my life dated, or even hung out with a girl before. I always feel like I'm not good enough, and scary. I say scary because I'm kind of buff, and I have scared the **** out of a few girls without me doing anything. For example, once a girl came to ask me a question about our homework. She then said to me, "your eyes make you look like the devil. I don't want to talk to you anymore." I thought to myself, wff? What did I do? I was just looking at her. Also, I was on the bus once, walking to the back. A girl was sitting with her boyfriend having a convo. The whole time I was walking to get to the seat in front of her, she was giving me this dirty look. I didn't stare at her because I'm a little shy, but I glanced here and there, and that's how I noticed she was giving me that dirty look. When I was at my seat, I glanced at her and stared, and she literally opened her eyes really wide, and jumped a bit like she was about to have a heart attack. Her face then turned red, and she looked away. I know I'm not cute, but people have told me that I'm very handsome. I really don't see it, and sorry I don't exactly want to post a picture of myself. I'm 5 foot 7, buff, and presumably "handsome." I also play the electric guitar, and am working on becoming a film editor/director as I am in a 4 years bachelor of arts university degree. I make many short films. Every single one of my friends say I'm like the funniest guy on the face of the earth. They also say I'm very honest, polite, a little too generous, very truthful (I stick to my promises) and very fun to hang out with. I also enjoy having conversations about ANYTHING. All my friends seem to come to me first with their problems because they say I'm very helpful, and knowledgeable about solving problems. 5 of my friends even called me this winter break to say that they miss me. One of them went as far as saying that they love me, even though I only knew him for 4 months (he's not gay, he has a girl. Buddy love lol :D) If all this is true, then why can't I get myself a girlfriend? Am I scary (based on my 5 foot 7, and buff description)? Is what I'm doing worth a girl's time? I'm 19, and I feel pathetic even asking these questions on this site. What's wrong with me? I forgot to mention that because of the way I was raised, I have never said the words "I love you" to anyone, including my own parents. Also, I have never hugged anyone in my life. I really want to learn how to, and I was hoping a special girl can show me how. Is that a turn off?

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