I dont think this is infatuation?

Well, people say im infatuated about this girl or wuddevs... but they also say infatuation is when you feel for a person but the feelings are not certain to last long, they say its a type of foolish or extravagent feeling, or when they do something you dont like or like reject or break up with you you'll be bummed for a few days but it wont break your heart. when i think of love i believe that real love never leaves the heart so no matter how much they hurt you, you'll still love them with you hurting heart... and if you dont love them now you didnt love them then... thats just what i believe... well, i know for a fact that i'll love this girl for the rest of my life until the day i die. and i also know that the last time she hurt me (she was pissed) i went into a deep state of depression and avoided her for like a month before i actually tried talking with her, she said she had wanted to talk to me the whole time but i wouldnt let her... but if infatuation is what i stated earlier, im not infatuated... and the foolish part... well, what i feel makes sense because i have plenty of reasoning for the feelings i have. and dont say im too young to know what love is, my mind is about 10 years ahead of myself. and i do know what love is, im really really mature for my age. i also know that real love involves commitment, and i am one of the most commited people you will ever meet. and i am completely commited to this girl... no matter what happens and what she does i will always be by her side, im only 13 and ive already done alot to keep her out of trouble and i wont stop ever. and dont say its hormones because its not. if im not infatuated, or in love... what am i? or do i not know what infatuation is?